Time flies

I decided that I should finally look at this blog again. It's been so long since I wrote in it I feel like in some ways that person wasn't me. I've let so much slide on Second Life, and sometimes in RL as well. I've coasted along looking for something to give me passion again and I'm not sure I'll find that but I do know RL has given me some focus and some stress. I do miss the people I speak to on occasion.

I miss the ones I don't. I really wonder if she knows I still think of her with her RL birthday coming up, that I still worry for her. I promised myself when she and I stopped talking that it would be for the last time. That that was it. Before I knew it a year had passed. I missed her birthday, she missed my 21st. Christmas went by, another is coming soon. I still have the bracelet I told myself I would mail her tucked away in my desk, gathering dust. I still wonder if my loved ones even see me when I'm there. Or maybe its me who doesn't see them. Life plays funny games like that. 

My 5th year of Ishimaru Kohime being active is coming this February. That's such a long time and now I'm barely even on SL. I'm finishing my Associates in May. I'm moving on to a 4 Year University.  I'm struggling through life like everyone else does. Trying to make ends meet, trying to survive. I watch the news sometimes and it baffles me how much people have taken for granted. 

Time has flown by me so fast I blinked and suddenly Spring Semester of my final year of my Associates is here. I'm 21, still living at home, still drawing, still dreaming. At least one dream may come true. Yasa and I are going to meet in May, at long last. She's coming up here to "hell's freezer" as I jokingly call it and going to watch me get my diploma. We've known each other 4 years this Christmas. My mind is still baffled as to how she and I have stuck together so long. Through hardships and fun. I don't think I've ever had a friend who's lasted as long as her. It's nice because she knows me inside out and doesn't think horribly of me, or any of that. It's the same for me. 

I think if I do make a New Years Resolution this year it will be to change myself a little. I don't feel like I'm quite *there* yet. I'm trying though. :)