Noticing a Trend

I've noticed lately my focus has kind of scattered to life away from Second Life, certainly an interesting route. It hasn't even been a "recent" thing either I think over time I've just outgrown my need for it. Social interaction hasn't always been a big thing and I know I have no confidence but maybe a little adventure into the world is a good thing. School has been kind of deadening emotionally and work is always a struggle but I know I'll be alright. I have the tools and the will to survive. I'm coming close to the end of the school year so I'll be on more often then, when not working, but it's still nice to get away for a while. I want to start using this particular blog for my writing and my poetry I suppose. I haven't written a story in so long and I guess I miss it. I miss being less weighed down by responsibility and full of energy and hyper activity. I can't remember the last time I gushed about something and genuinely meant it. Friends have left me over time, which is always sad, and I've reverted back into my hermit ways relying only on my sister and what few friends we're both able to hold on to. I learned this year how the world just likes to pull me up only to throw me down and for that I'm grateful. It taught me the lesson Lainey used to try to teach me. Don't Trust Anyone. I don't want to live that way but that's just where I'm at right now. I hope all of that makes sense. I hope that people can take something positive from what I'm saying and think "Oh, she's alright," because even though I feel detached from life at the moment I'm still living it, even if grudgingly. Maybe some day I'll be back to my carefree nature but for now I'm too busy trying to be an adult about life and struggle through it.

These are my thoughts for today...

Ishi

Djing is Love :3

It's been a bit since I've been able to DJ. I had a few technical/hardware issues before I could fully jump back in (First I had to do a complete system restore and then my monitor died o.O) but I'm finally back in the game! Definitely enjoying my set :) some pictures for everyone bellow! :3

Me, Migg, Kath and Croon Left to Right

Boss lady Katherine! <3

Hostie Croon! <3

See you next week for another set!!

Mata Ne!

Ishi 石

Late Night/ Early Morning Boredom :3

Just got done my History of Mass Communications homework about an hour ago and I've been sitting here listening to drunk people running down the halls and Paramore blaring in my headphones for entertainment. I accidentally read the wrong blog post before going back to my assignment and making sure what I was reading was right, which it wasn't. The homework assignment was about Photojournalism and the photo manipulation controversy that surrounds most government bodies and any major wars we might have (For example the War on Terrorism) I found the articles really enlightening and I really hope I can retain enough for tomorrow but just in case I'll probably skim first thing in the morning and grab bits to remember before class. Anyway back on the topic of drunken floor mates and the accidentally read article which actually relates to them quite well. It was about this whole theory of how stupid people don't actually realize they're stupid and it was about how we as human beings would LIKE to know all that we need to know. But often times we do not. A good reference of the article was "unknown unknowns" A quote from a speech by Rumsfeld a government official who was talking about what we know/don't know about the War. How do we KNOW we don't know something. We don't know it so it doesn't exist? Nope not true. We only have "known unknowns" things we know we don't know. Although I think Rumsfeld was just trying to cover himself with confusing statements I still think its nice he admitted he had no clue what was going on. lol..

Anyway XD that was all my enlightning stuff for the day along with a run down of my night. I'll see about posting links to the parts of the accidentally read article another time but for now off to bed for me to recover from the stomach flu yay! *pumps myself with drugs* XD

Mata Ne!
Ishi 石