新しい

Not much happening except getting ready for move in day... Chilling... discovered a new band from a friend which is always awesome.. i think between my music and her music... we would have awesome music together haha. Having a relaxing evening while trying Viewer 2 is always nice. It's okay... I guess... I wish Emerald wasnt practically banned now because I liked it lol. Ah well.. c'est la vie I guess haha. Anyway I'll be out of djing for a couple weeks and I hope I'll come back better than ever... all this down time is making me grumpy though lol. See you all soon!

Ishi 石

時間 Times have changed...

I've been away for a while gearing up for finals and my 2nd year of college living in the dorms. Stress has been high but today has been very relaxed so that is a good thing. Sadly its also given me time to think because I feel like now if I log on SL sometimes I'm almost being accused of neglecting what's important to me on SL. It isnt any one person and it doesnt matter who said what but I feel hurt by it none the less. The people I have met over the last 3 years have been like my family. There was a time when I needed that family because my rl one was falling to pieces. I was growing up. I was becoming a young woman who needed to have goals and needed focus. I found that focus in Second Life. I found that focus and the love of a family in Second Life. Now it feels like when I have to focus on my life outside Secondlife whether its my education or my financial standing everyone has to make me feel bad for it. Sorry I'm not perfect and I'll never ever pretend to be. Again. It isnt any one person and the "feeling bad" is more of a "well this sucks but what can I do" not a "omg you're breaking my heart I think I might die of agony!" I find the whole thing not that big a deal. I'm sorry I havent been able to say hi to everyone or to check on Freakheim or to check on every ones lives and mental states and all that stuff. That is because I need to take care of me first. If I hear "Do what you have to do" one more time I might scream lol. It's not a matter of doing what I have to do. It's a matter of my priorities have shifted for the time being. I love each and every one of you and you know what? I dont IM Rhyanna or Guen or Kaedy every day to say "hi how are you." They know if the shit gets ugly I have their backs. Saying hi to you doesnt make you my family. Not saying hi doesnt mean I dont care. It means I just didnt IM you and say hi. So i've missed a bunch of Rykk's sets and he has been chomping at the bit to get me in to them and give me a proper music education. I dont see him cryin about it. If he's offended I'm sorry lol I love you Rykk! I text people every few days I IM when my attention isnt zoned into something else. Cant we all just understand that I like time to me too? I'm using all this time away from SL to have it BE time away from SL whether I'm doing homework or even taking time to myself to goof in photoshop or to talk to people on Skype.

On another note. I've noticed a certain level of homophobia directed to my recent partnering of Nyx's alt. She is my wife in my heart because she protects me and honestly she's put up with my bullshit better than Benji or Fox ever could have. Dont like it? I'm sorry but take that up with me. A wife or a husband do not matter to me. Love matters and Nyx loves me like I deserved to be loved by Benji or Fox. I dont descriminate love and I wont take it personal if someone close to me doesnt see it how I do. I know you're all older and you lived in a certain time where love was a man and a woman. Thats not how I feel about love.

As a closer I apologize to those who are offended by what I say in this post but remember please that these are my thoughts and feelings and regardless of them I love all of you equally.

Matta ne!

Ishi 石

生命

So I'll be busy for a few days but that doesnt mean I'll be totally off the radar... Looking into some new tunes like always, new anime....

I've been bouncing between Black Butler, Maid-Sama!, Gurren Lagann and the usual weekend animes that air over seas a lot lately. Musically, I am loving Becca - I'm Alive! very much right now! Black Butler's first season ending is definitely a new favorite. Though the song is in english the artist is licensed with a japanese music label. I wouldnt mind tryin that out if i ever want to do music but Rykk would probably drag me back home haha... so ya... I've been drawing a bit here and there but mostly I have zero energy for anything right now. Math math math and more math... and lets throw in some English Composition! Yay! I cannot wait for the semester to be over.

Anyway, no DJing for a while *puts my headphones on to drown out the collective groan from the Freaks* I'll be in and out of SL mostly to get homework help from various smart people but other than that no immediate plans for anything SL related.

As a closer here's a video of that song i was talkin about.. :)

Matta ne!

Ishi 石

作成するため

It sucks when I get into a creative slump and lately that has been a constant. I think I've only done a handful of drawings all summer and I haven't been very productive in the store lately either. I have been trying out a new hobby of sorts in the form of an SL RolePlay called Little Yoshiwara. Such beautiful surroundings and not a meter in sight. I am attending the local Okiya to train as a geisha and am currently of the minarai level. I've learned a lot about different aspects of what geishas do to make themselves presentable, what skills they must learn to perform for their community and the history of the culture.
There are a lot of misconceptions about geishas and I hope maybe I can squash them. Geishas are not whores or prostitutes. The word geisha means performance artist and that is exactly what they are. They must move as seamless and flowing as water or air. Every aspect of a geisha must be pristine from the make up to the hair to the clothing to the quality of their performances. At the okiya I role play at you must undergo training for certain aspects of life at the okiya such as entertaining clientel at the ochaya. Communication skills are a must! Not only are you telling people stories on occasion but you are communicating with them like you would a normal person.
Little Yoshiwara holds performances on many occasions and you have the oppertunity to listen to authentic music and to hear folktales that each geisha must do research into before presenting. I have attended one performance already and have heard several stories that are sometimes presented during performances.

Anyway... thats about all I've been doing this week: RL, stuck in a creative slump, and learning new things. I look forward to my first performance at the okiya and I hope I can get some inspiration for clothes real soon so that my store doesnt stay empty forever. I'll be back in Freakheim again this weekend. Thursday is the usual mix of Metal, German Industrial and Jrock, and Fridays I have now officially made JRock Marathon night. This Friday I will be DJing a Cherry Blossom Viewing Event with Zak as my host and the theme of dress will be yukata, furosode, kimono etc. Lets see what you can come up with!

Mata ne!

Ishi 石

楽しみの時間!

Finally got to DJ after going so long! Since I didnt get to celebrate my Birthday with the Freaky crew we had a late bash and I got to play some JRock!

I love it when I get to hang with these guys... two years and its still insane and awesome. The first and only place that lets me play JRock! I havent found another club like it and I probably never will. Rykk does a pretty awesome job and he's always taken pretty good care of me. Of course that can be said on behalf of all the staffers and freaks. Freakheim is truly a family place <3

Ok enough plugging the awesomeness! Back to RL where my math homework awaits! I got midterms comin up next week and I hopefully kick ass at them. I'm certainly going to try!

Ja Ne!
Ishi 石

歓迎された家! Welcome home!

There isnt much going on this week just unpacking my junk from PortCon and hanging out around the house. I am loving the new CD sooo much! Kanon Wakeshima is a goddess! Here's hoping the rest of my week is as awesome as my weekend!

Ja ne!
Ishi 石

Animeの大会! Anime Convention!

I've been spending some quality "me" time in Portland for the weekend at the local anime convention PortCon. The old man asked me not to spend all my money on stuff and spend it on food so I bought myself only 1 piece of merchandise. Ever the lover of music, I got myself Kanon Wakeshima's debut CD, Shinshoku Dolce. The track list is as follows:

1. Sweet Ticket
2. Shinku no Fatarythm
3. Kagami
4. Still Doll
5. Maboroshi
6. Enuui Kibun!
7. Suna no Oshiro
8. Monochrome Frame
9. L'Espoir/Mahou no Akai Ito
10. Kuroi Torikago
11. Skip Turn Step
12. Shiroi Kokoro
13. Sweet Dreams

I heard Still Doll and Suna No Oshiro originally from the 2 seasons of Vampire Knight (they're the ending themes) and I feel in love with this girl's vocals and her cello. Her fashion sense is also pretty epic if i do say so myself. I have a bit of a soft spot for cute japanese girls in lolita fashion... I have a few of these tracks downloaded at home but i cant wait to get the whole CD uploaded to the PC when I return!

Ja Ne
Ishi 石

こんにちはそして歓迎 Hello and Welcome!

Thought it would be good to get going on the blog thing. Not much happening at the moment. I have an anime convention I will be going to next thursday - sunday which is always exciting for me. I'm downloading some new tracks for my sets. I planned on a JRock marathon on my birthday but got surprised with dinner and then a weekend trip to Niagra Falls which was pretty cool.

Anyway tracks include
Luna Sea - No Pain
Girugamesh - Break Down, Glamorous Sky, DEAD WORLD
VistLip - Black Tail, Dead Cherry, Moon Light Snow Rabbit

Waiting on some Luna Sea downloads and that list is gonna be extensive I hope.

Post me some suggestions on SL or in my inbox on Facebook!

Ja matte!

Ishi